ONE YEAR BIRTHDAY
It’s a very special day — This blog turns one year old today!
One year ago, I was dealing with one of the worst weeks of my life. I didn’t feel ready to share many of my thoughts on a platform that was linked to my name, but I knew I needed to write. Thus, LFSMusings.com was formed.
I wrote freely and without fear of judgement. I shared about more than just adoption and spent a lot of the early weeks writing about my broken engagement and mental health in graduate school.
It wasn’t until later that I started claiming this blog as my own. I began to share all my interests here, namely books. It’s now grown to include more “lifestyle” posts too. How I organize my time, my writing updates, random adventures I experience.
When I discover new passions, I have the urge to share them somewhere. The space continues to grow and evolve as I share these passions here. These space has even given me a platform as a book influencer, something I never knew existed.
There are times when I consider taken down my beginning posts. The posts where I was hurting so much the words are painful for me to read now. Ultimately, I think they are just part of my growth. They are from a time when I was too scared and ashamed to open up about anything other than adoption and I used this space to hide.
I don’t know how this blog will change in the future. Perhaps my posts will become a bit more “academic” and not just my musings about life experiences. Perhaps it’ll shift to be a photo gallery of books, novel-writing, and paper planning. This blog gave me the safety to process, and it continues to be a space where I can be passionate without flooding everyone’s Instagram feeds.
So, it’s one year later and I am at a completely different stage in my life. I have a completely different outlook and I feel more motivated than ever to keep going. It has been so cool scrolling through over 200 posts on this page and watching my transformation — from being ashamed to embracing myself.
I’m proud of this space and I’m proud of the person I am.
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Keith Edward (@Tweettermary)
Hi! I found your blog kind of by accident, as I was reading about the Myka Stauffer saga and found your twitter, which led me to your blog. Anyway, I am adopted, but I am a white guy adopted by white parents and was born in the US. I think over the past two weeks I have read a lot of your blog and I find it very fascinating. My wife is from Taiwan and we have a son who is biracial. I just wanted to say thank you for sharing your life and thoughts with us. You really need to write a book. Thanks!
LFS Musings
Wow thank you so much! I’m so glad you have connected with my writing. I have two fiction works in progress featuring transracial adoptees. I hope that in the future, I may actually get them on the bookshelves and offer some more representation for adoptees!